Saturday, June 30, 2012


WWMTS...the question that is constantly running through my head.  In other words, "What Would My Therapist Say?"  Anytime I feel a little conflicted about what is going on in my life, this is what I always come back to.  If you've read 50 Shades of Grey, I think of my therapist like Ana's inner-goddess.  Is she peering down her glasses at me?  Doing a little dance?  Relaxing on the beach?  

I'm still working on getting my heart and my head on the same page...ok, same book really.  Sometimes I feel like they are oil and water.  So when I can't quite figure out which to go with, I wonder what my therapist would say about the situation.  I'd like to say I always go with what I think would make her do a little dance, but sometimes I just have to go with my gut.  I know that if I were a little more confident with my decisions, I wouldn't question myself so often.  It's a tough pill to swallow.

I can give my friends advice all day long, but I can't follow it myself.  Easier said than done, I guess.  Such is life.  Maybe one day soon I'll be able to make a strong decision and stick with it.  I feel like I'm taking baby steps, which is better than nothing.  And I'm ok with that.  It's all a learning process, but I need to remember to do what makes ME happy.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I want to put myself before everyone else, but I need to remember that my feelings are just as important as everyone else's.  I want my inner-goddess (and my therapist) relaxing on the beach with a frosty beverage because they are just as confident in my decisions as I am.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


I did it...I went from 507 friends to 430.  I'm pretty proud of that!  The funny thing is that I found myself worrying about hurting the feelings of someone I hardly (if ever) talk to.  There is probably more cleaning that could be done, but I think this is a darn good start!  

While I was at it, I cleaned out my phone as well.  Deleted old contacts and text messages that I didn't need to hang on to anymore.  I feel lighter already :)  Now I think it's time to tackle the email and all of the random stuff I somehow ended up getting signed up for.  Adios to those as well!!

I wasn't able to start on the cabinet redo this weekend which was kinda a bummer.  I'm still trying to figure out if I can get the handles off without damaging the drawers and how difficult they will be to put back on.  If no solution comes to mind, they will just be painted the same color as the drawer.  21 handles is more than I want to tape off!!

Before you judge, just remember...

Sunday, June 17, 2012

One and Done

I had a date today.  I was really excited and was actually quite nervous.  We decided to meet at Lenox Mall and roam for a while.  Sounds like a good first meeting/date.  I wish I could say the same about the date!  When he sat down next to me, I actually wondered if it was the same person.  Can you say doesn't look at all like his pictures?  And who smacks gum on a date?  Yep, you guessed it...not me!! I have to give thanks to the friend that called and pretended to be my mom to bail me out of the date.  Yeah...I went there!  So, chalk this one up to a one and done...

Thursday, June 14, 2012


This is my time...

After almost a year of separation, we signed and filed the divorce papers on June 8, 2012.  That night, I had dinner with a new friend (hooray!) who suggested that this should be "The Year of Me."  Take the year and do whatever makes me happy.  Go on dates...lots of dates...without looking or hoping for a relationship.  So, thanks to Tammy, that's exactly what I'm going to do.  I'm going to throw caution and expectations to the wind and see where life takes me.  

It's time to be selfish, so one of the first things I'm doing is ridding my life of selfish people.  I know...oxymoron at it's best, right?!  But here's the thing, and it's pretty simple..."People inspire your, or they drain you - pick them wisely" as said by Hans F. Hansen.  I want to surround myself with people that inspire me on all different levels.  

I'm finally ready to take a stand and do what I feel is right for me, not what others think I should do.  That means it's time to do a little "de-cluttering" and for once, I'm not afraid to lose what's not really there anyway.  First order of business...Facebook.  I think it's time to clear out the friends list.  507 friends?  Really?  Do I really know 507 people closely enough to want to share bits of my life with them?  

Second order of business...back to crafting.  I've been out of the game WAY too long and I'm finally starting to miss it.  The first project on tap is to transform a filing cabinet that has been sitting in the garage in need of some TLC.  I found this on Pinterest (get used to seeing that word) and am so excited!!  My cabinet looks just like this, only bigger.  

I'm curious to see how many get cut from FB and how the cabinet project turns out!!