WWMTS...the question that is constantly running through my head. In other words, "What Would My Therapist Say?" Anytime I feel a little conflicted about what is going on in my life, this is what I always come back to. If you've read 50 Shades of Grey, I think of my therapist like Ana's inner-goddess. Is she peering down her glasses at me? Doing a little dance? Relaxing on the beach?
I'm still working on getting my heart and my head on the same page...ok, same book really. Sometimes I feel like they are oil and water. So when I can't quite figure out which to go with, I wonder what my therapist would say about the situation. I'd like to say I always go with what I think would make her do a little dance, but sometimes I just have to go with my gut. I know that if I were a little more confident with my decisions, I wouldn't question myself so often. It's a tough pill to swallow.
I can give my friends advice all day long, but I can't follow it myself. Easier said than done, I guess. Such is life. Maybe one day soon I'll be able to make a strong decision and stick with it. I feel like I'm taking baby steps, which is better than nothing. And I'm ok with that. It's all a learning process, but I need to remember to do what makes ME happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I want to put myself before everyone else, but I need to remember that my feelings are just as important as everyone else's. I want my inner-goddess (and my therapist) relaxing on the beach with a frosty beverage because they are just as confident in my decisions as I am.