Remember this post from the other day? Well, it's done...the post-it has been delivered. Ok, so I didn't actually leave a post-it note, since that wouldn't have been possible :)
Text was the chosen form of communication. I realize more and more how texting should not be a major form of communication. I completely misinterpreted the "tone" in his messages. In the end, it didn't matter, but it still got a little confusing for a quick minute.
Part of me feels better because I know I did what needed to be done. I finally stood up for my values and my needs. I put myself first and decided that I wasn't going to settle. Bravo me, right?!
The other little part feels broken. That's only normal, right? I had to end something with someone that meant something to me. And it sucks. Big time. And honestly, it should have been done a while ago. I should have listened to my gut a few weeks ago instead of falling a little more and more. But ultimately, I could only let go when I felt the time was right.
So I keep giving myself a pep talk. Reminding myself that it's ok to be a little selfish and what I feel is best for me. It's been a bumpy road, this past year. But I finally feel like there is air in the tires and the road is turning to pavement instead of gravel.